— some random guy on the internet today.
If good coffee and dark beer is the standard for living a good life, I’m doing pretty damn well for myself.
I haven’t had internet access at my house for about a month. Not really by choice. Mostly by laziness. It turns out that grown-up things like dealing with the cable company can really suck.
The lack of internet has been nice. I still don’t really have it except at work and school. It is amazing how a life apart from internet really changes how you experience the world.
Omar Khayyám (tr. Juan Cole).
Sometimes when I’m high, I have little epiphanies about life and other things. So here is one I’m having right now.
I am such an anxious person. I worry how my interactions with people will affect my future interactions with them. I think about all the negative directions my life could go. The cliche concept of “living in the moment” is something I am rarely able to achieve because I am too wrapped up in shifting my focus away from the present.
If I’m unable to truly be present in what is happening right now, how can I expect to find any kind of happiness in that moment?
I can’t, and I don’t.
Anyways. I’m glad I understand this now. I have to recognize the issue before I can address it.